Bye killer boobs, hello foobs

 Well surgery. 

That was an interesting few days.

 I don’t remember much of the day itself. I remember my period starting. Yay. But then because I was out of it for about 5hours. It wasn’t a bad thing.

From what I remember I was chatting away to the anaesthetic nurse about my wedding and then I was coming too with some completely different man chatting to me. I had 3 drains attached to me, one of which was for my left breast, one for my right and one for my lymph node clear out. Here is a picture of my drains that were attached to my bed. Which was a bit annoying when I needed a wee, they had to detach me and then put me back to the bed again. They were extremely long and quite frustrating but I did have some drain bags to help keep it all. It was more hard work at nighttime when I was trying to move around because I had to be aware of where they were situated. It’s kind of like having 3 extra limbs! 

They told me I was due to be discharged on the Wednesday evening to which I wasn’t feeling too good. I felt
Quite spaced out and a bit weak, so they agreed to keep me in until Thursday morning. 

Thursday morning I woke up, had my meds and then I ate my toast, got up for a wash and a wee and then sat in the chair. The next thing I remember is waking up Screaming for help on the floor covered in blood. They all came rushing in and o had clearly fainted. They got me Up and cleaned me up then I was sat on the bed with the nurse and then boom I went again.. 
So 6 stitches in my forehead, 2 in my lip, 1 emergency CT scan due to vomiting head injury, ECG. They decide I’m not fit to go home, that I should stay. THANKFULLY i did not do any damage to my drains or surgery sites. But my head/face and spectacles are a state. 

They don’t truly know what caused my faint episodes. They are either blaming my ‘cocktail of pain relief’ which I was on. Including cocodomel and morphine and I wasn’t actually in pain. But they also believe it could be my heart medication I was taking. As I had to stop taking my heart meds 5 days before my surgery, they then just put me back on it on Wednesday which the heart medication affects my blood pressure. So sudden spikes in my blood pressure which I was told had been a bit up and down after all the observations I have had. Who knows. But they extended my stay by 3 more days! 

They then removed my drains. I felt like a new woman. It didn’t really hurt removing them, but one of them did continue to leak down my back which made me feel quite gross. Then I was discharged on Saturday to return to hospital on Wednesday to have my dressings inspected! 

It’s a weird experience trying to get up and about. I immediately feel a bit anxious because I’m scared of a blood pressure spike again, and I don’t want to face plant the floor again. But just a simple thing of putting my right arm down to lift up or turn around in bed is something I can’t do. Sitting on a sofa and then getting up, you immediately put your arm down and then try and push up it’s a painful thing. On the left side is not a bad. Ok there is limitations to what I can do but it’s not as bad as the right. 

I’m on strict limits to lift nothing more than a cup and definitely no kettles. So handling Erin is a no go right now. I am staying at my Grandmas for a few days whilst I get a bit more mobile and heal better. But she has been to see me and was very careful and cautious. She did laugh at my face though. So I don’t know how I feel. 

These are the photos I don’t really want to share, but I think I need to share the extent of the 6hour surgery I had and the intense dressings I have going on. (I have permission to show these pictures) but for anybody else who is considering choosing this option, this is what you will be faced with. Once the wounds have healed and I have no dressings I will also show that as I don’t feel there is enough information or true imagery on this. You can see on my left side the bigger dressing under my arm which is where they did the auxiliary lymph node clear out. 

People say that I’ve had a free boob job. But it’s not a free boob job. This is temporary risk reducing from cancer again surgery. Ok my boobs are much perkier than before, but there has to be a light somewhere!