5/12
26/11/19
This is me during chemo. Knackered and exhausted from a week of sickness, bruised ribs from coughing and retching, still got a cold. But here I am smashing out 5/12!
Thanks for the photo Jim! Hahaha!
27/11/19
Symptoms wise was not that bad. Still feeling sore from the effects of the sickness last week and the coughing but not had any additional symptoms.
I have noticed that my nails are becoming very brittle and a bit flaky. I did read somewhere that having dark nail polish or a gel nail should be good to protect the nails. The next time I’m back in I am going to speak to one of the oncology nurses and see what the deal is with regards to some gel nails. I miss them.
I also had a follow up appointment at the cardiologist today. So the heart medication I have been taken, has caused my heart rate to be fast. I have commented that I have been more ‘aware’ of my heart beating, but put it down to last week and being sick and having a coughing fits into all hours of the night. They are now going to be putting me on some beta-blockers to help slow down my heart which I will now take at night time before bed. The effects this has are more for blood pressure being dropped and during night time when I’m asleep, it won’t matter too much. I do have to have regular blood pressure and ECG done with the cardiologist nurse weekly which we will tie in when I go down to hospital for chemotherapy.
Eyebrows are still present, and eyelashes are slightly sparse but not that much. My hair is a different matter. After I clipped it I was starting to channel my inner Demi Moore. But it has now started thinning a lot on the front and becoming very patchy.
So tonight James used his beard trimmer and cut it all off and then clean shaved my head which is a weird thing because I didn’t think I would ever be asking my fiancé to shave my head. I think he has secretly wanted to do it for a long time and given the opportunity it made his night! I haven’t taken a photo of me with no hair because it’s taken me a while to look at myself in the mirror without my headscarf. It’s a weird demoralising thing to have your head and then completely look nothing like yourself. Your hair shapes every part of you. Your face, and it also makes me me. But with the clippered hair it was like it’s still me. But now I’m just an egg. And it doesn’t look right. Don’t get me wrong, it certainly feels better because I can’t feel the pain of my scalp as my ‘dead’ hair is there.
I did have a cry in the bath. Then got into bed and ready to watch the apprentice.
Just remember that it is okay to cry.
28/11/19
Today we nailed adult stuff and then did some Christmas shopping whilst Erin was at nursery. It consisted of a lot of stopping and resting and taking our time. But I certainly think I should of stopped earlier because I did have to have a nap at 4:30 before picking Erin up.
Symptoms wise I’m good. No sickness, haven’t had to reach for the sickness medication at all. I have noticed that when I do feel sick, it’s normally when I’m tired and hungry. So keeping snacks with me is key so I can snack when I need!
29/11/19
Today was again, a good day. I actually managed to go to work today! I say manage to go to work, I said to myself. “You need to go to work Friday.”
My boss is amazing and supportive and allowed me to do lots of admin style stuff and it made it easier for me because it meant I could sit in the office, have my water with me and lots of juice and work at my own pace. My work can become very busy and as a professional, I have a lot of responsibilities which are normally spread around running around the shop floor with patients. Which in all honesty I do not have the energy to do that. So working in the office was a good opportunity for my brain to be in gear and get out the house.
Although writing this at 8:39pm I could easily go to sleep.
Symptoms wise, I’m feeling good. Not feeling sick, haven’t needed the anti sickness medication today. Still coughing and spluttering but I’m okay.
Thanks for the photo Jim! Hahaha!
27/11/19
Symptoms wise was not that bad. Still feeling sore from the effects of the sickness last week and the coughing but not had any additional symptoms.
I have noticed that my nails are becoming very brittle and a bit flaky. I did read somewhere that having dark nail polish or a gel nail should be good to protect the nails. The next time I’m back in I am going to speak to one of the oncology nurses and see what the deal is with regards to some gel nails. I miss them.
I also had a follow up appointment at the cardiologist today. So the heart medication I have been taken, has caused my heart rate to be fast. I have commented that I have been more ‘aware’ of my heart beating, but put it down to last week and being sick and having a coughing fits into all hours of the night. They are now going to be putting me on some beta-blockers to help slow down my heart which I will now take at night time before bed. The effects this has are more for blood pressure being dropped and during night time when I’m asleep, it won’t matter too much. I do have to have regular blood pressure and ECG done with the cardiologist nurse weekly which we will tie in when I go down to hospital for chemotherapy.
Eyebrows are still present, and eyelashes are slightly sparse but not that much. My hair is a different matter. After I clipped it I was starting to channel my inner Demi Moore. But it has now started thinning a lot on the front and becoming very patchy.
So tonight James used his beard trimmer and cut it all off and then clean shaved my head which is a weird thing because I didn’t think I would ever be asking my fiancé to shave my head. I think he has secretly wanted to do it for a long time and given the opportunity it made his night! I haven’t taken a photo of me with no hair because it’s taken me a while to look at myself in the mirror without my headscarf. It’s a weird demoralising thing to have your head and then completely look nothing like yourself. Your hair shapes every part of you. Your face, and it also makes me me. But with the clippered hair it was like it’s still me. But now I’m just an egg. And it doesn’t look right. Don’t get me wrong, it certainly feels better because I can’t feel the pain of my scalp as my ‘dead’ hair is there.
I did have a cry in the bath. Then got into bed and ready to watch the apprentice.
Just remember that it is okay to cry.
28/11/19
Today we nailed adult stuff and then did some Christmas shopping whilst Erin was at nursery. It consisted of a lot of stopping and resting and taking our time. But I certainly think I should of stopped earlier because I did have to have a nap at 4:30 before picking Erin up.
Symptoms wise I’m good. No sickness, haven’t had to reach for the sickness medication at all. I have noticed that when I do feel sick, it’s normally when I’m tired and hungry. So keeping snacks with me is key so I can snack when I need!
29/11/19
Today was again, a good day. I actually managed to go to work today! I say manage to go to work, I said to myself. “You need to go to work Friday.”
My boss is amazing and supportive and allowed me to do lots of admin style stuff and it made it easier for me because it meant I could sit in the office, have my water with me and lots of juice and work at my own pace. My work can become very busy and as a professional, I have a lot of responsibilities which are normally spread around running around the shop floor with patients. Which in all honesty I do not have the energy to do that. So working in the office was a good opportunity for my brain to be in gear and get out the house.
Although writing this at 8:39pm I could easily go to sleep.
Symptoms wise, I’m feeling good. Not feeling sick, haven’t needed the anti sickness medication today. Still coughing and spluttering but I’m okay.
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